Sorry for the month-long disappearance from this blog. For a while, it seemed like there wasn't much to write about, & then all of a sudden, it felt like everything was happening at once, & I was incredibly overwhelmed.
Some great things happened in the past month. My brother got to visit a few times, Laker & I went on some fantastic dates, we celebrated Galentine's Day, Nana (Laker's grandmother) celebrated her 80th birthday, & we went on a Springfield trip with some friends. I'll post about all of those things eventually, I'm sure.
However, I also lost my grandmother this month, & it has been extremely difficult. She was only 68, & this year would have been 50 years of marriage for her & my grandpa. Losing her was very unexpected - She was fine, & then she got sick one day & was gone a few days later. We've all just been in shock.
I remember once when we were little, my grandma took my cousin, Dawn, & I to Hobby Lobby, & a man thought we were sisters & my grandma was our mom. Being so young, I was shocked that he couldn't tell she was our grandma (after all, she was our MOMS' mom), but looking back, I realize it was probably because my grandma was always so feisty & energetic - always on the move.
My grandma was a funny, stubborn, loving woman who valued her family above all else. The love she shared with my grandpa is inspiring. She was so proud of her kids, & spoiled her grandkids & great-grandkids. She was truly one-of-a-kind.
One of the things my grandma passed on to us, probably without meaning to, is her ability to serve behind the scenes. When I was little, she taught me how to draw mermaids whenever I asked, & she made my Easter dresses. When I was in high school, my first job was with her (cleaning at a doctor's office), & she helped teach me how to drive on the way to & from work. She made my senior t-shirt quilt when I graduated from high school, & she & my mom put together all of the flowers & boutonnières for my wedding. She never did any of this to get credit or attention - she did it because she loved us & she loved to help, sometimes more than she should. But she was generous & stubborn (another quality she passed down without meaning to!), & we were all thankful for everything she gave us. I see this trait of behind-the-scenes generosity & service in so many of my family members, & I like to think it came from my grandma.
It's still difficult to believe that she's really gone. This all happened so suddenly, & she was always such a strong person. My grandma was a loving, wonderful person, & she will be missed by many.
I want to say thank you again to everyone who has supported me & my family during this time. We had several meals donated, flowers & plants brought to the family, & so many people who encouraged us & came to the service to support us. I also want to thank Colleen & some other friends who chose to remain anonymous, for leaving all of this at my doorstep within an hour of me arriving home that day. It was overwhelming to receive so much support on such an awful day. Thank you.
Christ. Laker. Lily. Padfoot. Puns. Polar Bears. Travel. Tea. Tattoos. Tigers. Books. Belle. Buffaloes. Wonderland. Creativity.